Today is quite a bad day. And this entry is backdated because my laptop’s wireless somehow decided to give up on me. I forgot to bring my ezlink and another impt card. I forgot to bring my umbrella and wore high heels. AND it rained heavily in the morning. Caught without umbrella, I have to call my project mate to pick me up.  I think my project mate OK is really nice. Smart. Funny. And not snotty despite being clever. At least he listens to my views compared to the ex-nice-project mate and miss-think-she-is-so-clever-project mate. And I realized that there is this other girl in the group whom the other 2 ignores, since she is a tad quiet and maybe different. I got sick of hanging out with the pretentious them since the early part of the school and became better friends with the quiet one. And she told me something which warmed my heart. Seriously, I don’t really like this project group. I think it is my worse project group this semester. But quiet one told me that she thinks our project group is the best one she ever had.

She used to work with smarter people and they talk down to her or give her the super easy parts to do. And refuse to listen to her views. Some of them even said in her face “let’s ignore her.” Well, fuck you snotty ones. Fuck your undeserved brain. Fuck your low EQ. And fuck your pathetic self. I feel really sorry for her. She said we are the only group who gave her substantial work to do and let her present her parts. Other groups let her present for 2 minutes or so for fear of her jeopardizing their grades. Well, we all learn from each other.

Seriously today miss-think-she-is-so-clever-project mate told the project group her sch which we can’t really tell cause obviously she hasn’t been displaying her intelligence but just wearing her raffles namesake as a tag. Whatever. Talk to my toes. And she let slip an info that she got distinction for a certain course. Whatever. When they were talking about this course they are taking now which they hate, I didn’t even mention that I got a distinction, cause it doesn’t really matter.

And I think I keep my emotions in check very well. In other words, I am so fake.

I think depression is setting in. I get angry at the slightest thing. And it is not the normal anger, it’s the anger whereby I feel a need to hit out physically. There was one day, I was so angry with my dad, I displayed my anger in the lift. I scared myself when I slammed the umbrella into the lift. At that moment, I would have gone on slamming the umbrella until the whole lift plunge down. It’s scary.

I need to reconcile my private side with my public side. Cause my public side is showing a happy individual while my private side is emotional, depressed and moody.

I am so angry with my laptop for giving up on me when I need it the most. Did I mention I hate you lappie? Well, I have less internet distraction. Shall accomplish all 3 tasks tonight minus the internet research.

my friend over in Shanghai was telling me about the peeps that are there already. And there is this girl whom I will call Banana who is notorious in my sch. And there is this guy Cat whom i disliked from one email he sent out to the peeps. Unfortunately Cat is working with my friend in the same company.

And Cat was sort of robbed when he was in shanghai, so he was blogging about it. But of course being a Cat with 9 lines and being extremely agile, he was able to fend off. So i was telling my friend that although i don’t really like Cat, the way he writes is quite interesting.

And my friend went to read the blog entry. And she almost wanted to puke. Cause she has heard that story 59076545789944578 times. And each time there are more and more additional details.

I was saying maybe by the time i arrive in shanghai, he will be telling me a new version of the story complete with how hot he is and how the robber wanted to rob him of his cash and gay virginity. And how he managed to kick and fend him off. Oh, my Hero! And then i said Cat can direct movies with Banana being the lead actress. hahaha.

And Cat is really quite irritating, cause he irritated a nice girl and talked non-stop all the time until the girl have to say ” I want to go to the toilet.”

if its me, i will tell him

“eh, you need to go to the toilet”

“huh, why?”

” cause you got verbal diarrhea”

someone needs to do a research about how stress makes people mean. Enough about research about oral sex killing.

My flight has been fast-forwarded 5 days. Which means I will end exams on fri and then fly off on sunday. Wow. And i will be the world’s faster packer to pack 6 months worth of stuff in 2 days.

And the new flying date means i won’t get to meet any friends at all. I cancelled all the plans I was going to have earlier and decided that I will just meet my family on fri. And sat will be packing day. And sun it will be “byebye singapore, i still love you and not forgetting the 200 bucks I left behind.”

Which means I got to reformat my laptop, go for vaccinations, buy digital and web cams, develop and laminate photos, buy medicine and toiletries within 2 weeks WHILE STUDYING FOR EXAMS. I think the only word going through my head now is “sian”.

And i have to get the photoshop cd also, learn it in 2 days, do more research for my work in 2 days. Phwar. I am superwoman if i can accomplish all this. And i was telling my friends that they will see my pictures with me looking the same, until i come back singapore and then they will realised how much i have ballooned, and how good my photoshop skills are.

I heard the food is super delectable there. Shit. Everybody said that. Which is good cause i can’t stand eating western food everyday. I will be eating xiao long bao everyday i think. And people say you are what you eat, so a da long bao i will be.

And 2007 being such a special year, i will travel alone in hk after my internship. While taking the connecting flight, i will stop over at HK and eat more dim sum there. Travelling alone will be a good experience i hope to a foreign place I haven’t been before.

I better develop a new technology that will photoshop people’s eyesight you know? then plastic surgeons will be out of jobs. I can allow the new photoshopped eyeball to see the image that I have photoshopped. Wahahha. And we can laugh at people with plastic surgery then.

Omg, that’s so hot. He is the only reason why I rushed home every day to watch the TV series.

Still looking good.

He is 44 lah. Shit. I am half his age. Sigh. And I realised that I can’t really remember my age anymore. I was at a travel agency and was asked for my age, and I happily said 21.

Gives new meaning to forever 21.

But still, swoons he is damn cute can.

I remember Mediacorp’s pathetic past attempts at this genre; Who Wants To Be A Millionaire, The Pyramid Game, Wheel of Fortune.

I remember Singaporeans embarrassing themselves at the simplest questions. The bottomline is, if you’re a dumbass, shelf your dreams of being a rich dumbass, that’s not gonna happen.

Finally, comes a game show where Singaporeans can have a shot at winning big money almost effortlessly. I caught the first episode, fascinating enough but everything gets stale so fast the advertisements felt unsurpisingly long. Other than the 26 models who provide some eye-candy, I seriously doubt the viewership will sustain as the show goes on.

You can play in your very own ‘Deal Or No Deal’ here;

http://www.dealornodeal.com.sg/game.htm

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I hope I had been there when my friends really needed me. I think today is an emo day for most. Somehow tears has been the main feature for today. Sometimes I see how circumstances force my friends to a corner and I am always thankful for what I have. I only have monetary and academic worries. And I feel for my friends who pour their hearts to me today. I only wished I can help them solve their problems.

And while walking home, I was reminded of the fact that 1 month away from now, I will be in a far away land without my family. The truth? I am fucking worried. I remembered a funny moment last saturday shared with my parents and suddenly my heart plunged when I realised that I probably won’t have this moment with them till next year. It is funny how I was laughing and basking in that funny moment while feeling nostagic at the same time. I am not sure whether my eyes will be dry in 1 mth’s time at the airport. I hope I will still have tears left by then. I pity the passenger next to me on the airplane. I hope he/she is in the mood for wet weather.

Sigh, back to work. 3 more weeks and i shall be free as a bird.

Lazy movie reviewer day

The VCD just came out couple of days ago so I’ve decided to get it for Mother’s Day and we ended up watching it on Mother’s Day together.

Some parts of the movie really cracked me up but honestly, the movie was pretty dull and disorientated overall. One moment they woke up at the hospital and the next they’re at some witch doctor.

The above passages may contain spoilers.

Rating: 3/5